Hi friends. It’s Wednesday, which means it’s time to share some food for thought and some food for your face hole. I’m linking up with the fab Jenn of Peas & Crayons.
Something my brain has been chewing on a lot lately is the idea of control. When is ok to take control and when is ok to let it go. I know I’m not alone when I say that I like control. I don’t just like it, I crave it. I want to know what I’m doing today, tomorrow, next week and next year. I like to know what I’m eating, what’s in it, where’s it from, how it’s made. I like to know everything that’s going on around me… at all times. I hate being caught off guard or worse with my guard down.
You know the feeling. Like when you turn a corner in your car a little to sharp and you have to hold tight as you veer around the bend. The creeping anxiety when you’re traveling and your flights delayed, which almost certainly means you’ll miss every flight after that. Or sitting in traffic watching the time go by even though the cars have stopped. Not too surprisingly, in the past, as someone dealing with depression, low self esteem and serious control issues I used to use food as a means to cope with a lot anxiety. Every bite was measured, calculated and accounted for. Luckily over time I’ve been able to heal from those obsessive, destructive behaviors but my control issues will always be there.
We have this illusion that we can be in control of our entire lives. We’re the captains, we’re the pilots, we’re in the driver’s seat. But guess what? There’s traffic. There are accidents. There are closed roads and detours and shitty weather that all the planning in the world can’t prepare you for.
Something I’m slowly, and I mean slowly (like 3 steps forward 2 steps back kinda slowly) learning is that some beautiful, spontaneous, wonderful, scary, heart breaking, vulnerable, unforgettable moments happen when you let go of the control. And wouldn’t be a shame if we never let them happen because we couldn’t let go?
I’m working on it (slowly). Sometimes it means going out for drinks with friends or trying something new – with the knowledge that I might hate it or trusting someone to help me accomplish a goal I couldn’t do alone…. or eating a snack my coworker gave me even though I hadn’t planned it (baby steps).
On to the food for your facehole part (I know, fantastic transition eh?)
Horchata Almond Milk Over night oats topped with nut butter, granola & berries
Homemade protein energy ballz.
Arugula, farro grains, sweet potato, avocado, sunflower seeds and tahini sauce
Justin’s Peanut Butter Cups
2 Slices of Ezekiel bread, 1 with avocado 1 with mix of almond butter & chocolate sun butter, siggi’s ginger orange yogurt topped with frozen mango
- Control issues. What are your tips for coping?
- Have you ever let go of control only to have something amazing happen? (or am I full of sh*t?)